Dear Momma, on your first day back at work
Today will be a tough day. No matter how you prepare yourself, your life is changing and change is tough.
You may be feeling all the emotions:
Feel all those emotions. They're a sign of a life well lived. They're a sign of the deep and complicated love you have for your children and for yourself.
Feel them. Feel them hard. Then take a deep breath.
Here's the thing Momma, you've put your career on hold to raise these amazing babies. A career you may have spent years building. Schooling, grueling hours, overtime, complicated by difficult managers, incredible managers, amazing coworkers, and fulfilling work.
Now it's time to step back into that role with an extra title - Momma. You're joining an exclusive club of working moms, your own little army standing behind you cheering you on. You've done the research and found the second best thing for your babies. You're trusting their caretakers to feed them, love them and kiss all the boo-boos better while you're busy shifting gears and trying to break that glass ceiling. Regardless, it's hard wanting to be in two places at the same time.
Today marks the end of one part of your life and the start of a new.
Here's what I can tell you. You will find your new normal. You won't always feel like your drowning. Your babies will not forget you. Pick up time is going to become your most favourite time of the day. And weekends will be so busy.
I give you permission to say no. It's okay to back away from all the "extras" until you want to. It's okay to spend the time you have with your kiddos actually with your kiddos. It's okay to forget which meeting room is where, and what your passwords are. It's okay because even though it's old, it's new.
Here's what else I can tell you. Nobody is expecting you to be perfect. Not your husband, your kids, your colleagues or your boss. Everyone knows this is a transition and transitions take time. Be gentle with yourself, be kind to yourself, and just wait for those snuggles at the end of the day.
So be scared, take a deep breath, and do it anyways.
And above all else, know that you've got this Momma!